Isabelle’s memorial was on Saturday morning. It was a really good idea. We had it at the Church Heather and Justin grew up in which made it a familiar and special place.
I don’t watch YouTube but they each chose a special video from there to dedicate to Isabelle. Justin chose :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MIJShOqh8Q
His explanation is that to him she’s not growing up in real life, but is growing in his heart, and so he dedicated this song to her.
Heather chose:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zsLeLYV-rus&feature=related
Both of course made us all cry.
I think and hope that the memorial will give them some closure. I have a feeling that some of the older ladies were there because they had suffered miscarriages back when it wasn’t acceptable to morn an unborn child. I hope they got some closure also.
Heather is still really having bad contraction like cramps and started lactating on Sunday. Such fun, (Not!) Stinks to have things happen that are hard to put up with even with a baby to hold. Sat and Sunday she was still really weak but she is starting to get stronger, I didn’t have to help her up the stairs to the house today, but she still won’t try the stairs to her room.
Unfortunately she is almost out of the Tylenol 3 and Motrin just isn’t doing it for her. I really wonder what that Dr. did to her. I normally am extremely trusting of Doctors. I love the practice my family and I have gone to for about 16 years now. There have only been three doctors I didn’t trust in my adult life, and my feelings of distrust of her are extremely strong. I know that I am probably putting some of my emotion from the miscarriage into anger at her, but I also am pretty sure that it is only a small part of my distrust.
I really don’t want to end this on a negative note. We have had wonderful support and love and I am very grateful for that. The grief counselor at the hospital was wonderful as were all the nurses.
Heather and Justin are going to donate money for a memorial to Isabelle at the church for playground equipment.
