Things are finally getting back to whatever normal is for my family. We all still have times when we really miss Isabelle, or realistically, miss “what might have been”. Ususally when we see something we would have loved to share with her like the holidays.
Heather is going to go back to school in Jan. and has put her name in at the day care center she used to work at as a sub after Christmas. I am really proud of her. I still have baby things in my trunk and shoved in weird spaces from when I shoved it all away after we found out we lost Isabelle. Slowly those are getting spread out to where they belong or put away for when Heather has another baby.
Sometime soon we are going to have to make an apt. with the Geneticist to learn what her odds are of having another baby with Down Syndrome. I am pretty sure the odds are only slightly raised which means that she probably has a better chance of hitting the lottery. I feel weird hoping that her next baby won’t have downs as somehow that seems to imply that Isabelle would have been less than welcomed baby. I certainly don’t mean that. I will have to think about that some more and try and process exactly how to say what I mean.
